Golden Suprise!

Well today was the first day of school, not too shabby but I can see a lot of work in my future. I had two hours to burn between classes so I visited cat and she made me lunch and we chatted about the workings of the world, her future, and life.

After class I spent the rest of the evening cleaning and reorganizing my storage unit. I feel much better now that its completed and checked off my to do list. I wish I had more daylight though because I was rushing to get it all back in as the sun went down. I could barely see by the time I left and the skeeters were attacking me. The worst part was all the nasty spiders ick!!!!

Then I went to the store to forge for dinner....I was gonna do bbq ribs and mushrooms taters and moosetracks, but kevin called and told me just get the mushrooms and well have fish since he just got done bluegill fishing with his dad. So I got the mushrooms, moosetracks mmmm, and two more boxes of redrose tea.

I gave them to kevins mom, but i kept the figurines. I keep trying to get the fall ones, but so far i got the february march and april one. I got an extra cupid so im going to give it to lily. They are the perfect size for the altar.

Now kevins cooking dinner and im blogging. Tomorrow i have class at 930, then i wil come home and work on more canning. Mild salsa this time and maybe some veggies if there is time.

Anywho back to the moon thing, i didnt think i was going to see her tonight. It had been dark a few hours and still nothing but black sky. Then on my way home with kevin i saw her. She was still low in the sky so she was HUGE and golden. So bright that i couldnt see any stars from inside my car. It looked like something out of a movie. The deepest black sky contrasted by the BRIGHT golden gigantor moon!

I feel like i accomplished a lot today, and am feeling pleased with my first day of class. I hope tomorrow is just as inspiring!

Love and light, and blessings
Amistis Reudan

New Blog

I just created a 2nd blog, this one is directly in relation to my 2nd degree class. One of the requirements in a meditation log, and i think this will be an easier way for me to document my meditation sessions and make access easier for my teacher to see it.What do you think?

link below:

http://amistisreudanmeditationlog.blogspot.com/

Moon Updates and Nature

Saturday night as I stared up at the night sky, the moon was bright in the cloudless black mass. Though the full moon was just the other night, signs of waning have already begun. On my walk during my break at work I begin noticing signs of fall. Leaves are changing to brilliant reds, not many but a few early ones, acorns litter the path I walk. and there is a noticable decrease in the number of geese near the pond. I saw my animal guide, and he kind of startled me because I didnt expect him to be so close. I didnt even know he was there until he took off and all I heard was a gush of air.

Sunday the moon was even skinnier. I think shes losing weight heehee. I found a tuft of deer fur, but somehow lost it once i got inside. I also collected some fallen red leaves and baby acorns for my altar. I can feel the change in the air, and sense it everywhere I got. I wonder what is in store for us this winter. Work has been pretty crappy, thus my mood was not as chipper as usual. I feel like something is off, maybe because my Goddess charm keeps falling off my chain. It was laying in my bed when i woke this morning...hmmm. Fell off during work too, so i gave it to kevin to fix and now its ok.

Monday-Labor day- working again. This day was considerably nicer at work than the last four days I worked. I was caught up with everything, and even had spare time on my hands. Something is wrong with my car now. Sounds so terrible when i try to start it like it has no energy at all, like my battery is on E. But if i keep trying to start it, it eventually gathers enough to start, then it goes like nothing was wrong to begin with, could it have anything to do with the new virgo and aries charms i hung with my pentacle on my rearview mirror? perhaps, or it could just be an old POS that it is lol. The moon was ominous looking when i left work. It was a bit more cloudy today, so the moon looked foggy and sort of sepia toned. Not sure if that means anything. Saw my goose today, i hope he makes it through the winter since he cannnot fly with him bum wing. I feel so bad for him.

Tuesday-First day of school. No more sleeping in for me lol. I'm kind of excited and kind of not. I am happy to be making progress towards getting my life in motion to where i want to be-my life is kind of hinged on my finishing college and getting my nursing degree. Need the income for a house, want to be married and have a family. But until then my life is at a stand still. Great motivation dreams are. I also am not too thrilled because it means ill be busier than i already am, with homework and deadlines, as well as my witchy class and assignments, and working so i can pay bills, not to mention the millions of other things that are included with daily life, like family cleaning the house cooking garden care etc.

Beginning My Full Moon Challange

For one whole moon cycle I will keep track of the moon, her presence and its effects of my mood, my life, my thoughts....

So here we begin...

The full moon was last night, there were hardly any clouds to obstruct my view. There she was just shining bright and full. I forgot to look and see the exact time of the full moon (12:02p). But within two days of it, there was no doubt it was near. I could feel it.

I had to work yesterday. It was bad enough being a friday, where usually we have a lot of discharges and admits to keep me busy. But last night wasn't like that. I was still super busy but with tons of different things, and census was so low, they closed a lot of room which caused them to pull a person, and cut us down to three on the floor. I just couldnt get caught up for the life of me.

The energy this moon just feels strange, and I woke up today with my goddess charm off of my chain, where as the other two charms remained.

Thats all for now!

Love and light!

Amistis Reudan

Finished my first assignment

I did my first assignment on the chakras.

I was trying to figure out a way to copy it to my blog but it isn't copying my tables nice so it looks like a mess. Ah well,its ok,maybe I'll figure something out....

New Idea, How Bout It?

I thought this was an interesting way to observe the changes of light and dark throughout the year...

"On my altar I will have 4 candles.... I have tried to figure out a simple but visually beautiful way of symbolizing Sabbats and their meaning, and here is my scheme into which this simple observance fits.


Yule - 1 candle lit during ritual.
Imbolc - 1 candle lit, a second during the ritual.
Ostara - 2 candles lit, a third lit at end of ritual or at sunset.
Beltane - 3 candles, one lit during ritual, making 4.
Midsummer - 4 candles, one extinguished at end of ritual.
Lammas - 3 candles, one extinguished during ritual.
Mabon - 2 candles, one extinguished at sunset or end of ritual.
Samhain - 1 candle lit, but extinguished during ritual."

What do you think?

thoughts of an insomniac

and unable to sleep i begin to wonder if these thoughts of mine are there for a reason. As a result of recent nightmares i began wondering if maybe I should focus on this dark part of my life. Dark people of which I speak not of. Should I give forgiveness for their wrongs when asked of it frequently, should i refuse because their acts and unbearable unforgiveable? What does forgiveness entail? Surely not a clean slate or a pat on the back saying "its ok no harm done..." when in all truthfulness there is a lifetime of harm taking its toll on my soul... so in this night I ponder this darkness, wondering if maybe my wearabouts are unknown, because lately theres been nothing but bills waiting for me...not a peep from the guilty ones. What are the risks of me granting their request? Do I dare open that door again that I have closed so tightly and guarded with my every being? How long can I hold this back before it consumes me and destroys me? And if I do extend this favor, will it turn out to be a double edged sword? Will it in turn hurt me worse than I've been hurt already? Hopefully I will be granted a sign from the universe upon what path I should take, for this is not a decision to make light of, and I'm afraid it will have to be kept under cover, at least until I see how this unfolds...how can I make this end? So many questions I have but not sure if my answers will be truth or more lies....will I ever understand and be at peace.....not on this night at least...